The First Real Entry Upon My Return

I thought it might be nice to write an actual entry - not just an "oh hey, I remembered that I started this thing" pity entry.

Life has been interesting. Interesting is the diplomatic word I've been using to describe my situation. Lonely would be another. Less lonely now than a month and a half ago but no where near where I'd like it. Let me elaborate. I live in a house with a kind older woman and a fairly quiet grad student (and a dog!). For the most part, the three (four) of us do our own thing. Occasionally we'll have a meal or watch tv together but we pretty much just coexist. It's really not a bad setup, I must say, but coupled with the fact that I don't talk to very many people at work, you can see how it might get a little old after a while. Thankfully I talk to Shane every night and we usually see each other anywhere from 1-3 times a week - which is impressive considering we live an hour away from one another. Though I guess an hour is a whole lost closer than two and a half hours which is the distance from my home to his.

Wolf Trap has been quite the experience. Again, diplomatic. I think the internship program is wonderful. We are treated like employees instead of interns which for most of us is fantastic and for others of us is a bit less than fantastic. I'm learning a LOT about the nit picky details of graphic design - a nit picky field of work in general. Mostly I'm learning the hard way - by screwing up and having to fix it - but hey, I'm learning. Sometimes I wish I'd learn first before having to redo the work 50 times, but I guess I have to take what I'm given. My supervisor has offered to help me with my resume. I thought that was nice of her. I'll definitely take her up on that offer although sometimes I feel like our artistic opinions differ greatly; so I'll take what she says and apply it the best I can to my own style.

I enjoy all of the intern talks and field trips that we get to experience. I really appreciate the opportunities that they're throwing at us in that respect. When I get a moment of free time, I plan to exploit some of those connections if only to pick their brains about their lives in an effort to give some direction to my own. I feel rather directionless right now. When this internship ends, I have another - but when that ends I have no idea what I'm going to do. I can tell you right now that it won't be anything like what I'm doing now. It's not for me. But then the question is what can I do with my degrees that doesn't involve graphic design for an arts organization. The answer is A LOT, actually, if only by association. It puts me in a good and a bad position. I have so many things to choose from that I feel like I'm going to be very indecisive - which won't allow me to move up in any one field. At this point I feel like I'm going to be entry-level for years simply because I'm going to want to try so many new things - or because I'm never going to be satisfied. But then I realize that I'm probably just letting myself think too much. I assume because I don't love this job as much as I thought I would that every job is going to be a let down and that can't be true. Statistically, at least ONE has to be a positive experience, right? I sure hope so.

I just need to figure out which one that is...

Hey There!

Ok, I forgot about this for a while. Post college life isn't quite what I thought it would be. I thought I would have more time. I don't haha. And yet I feel as though I am doing much less. The lady I live with is SO NICE. She's so nice. It is pleasant to come home to someone who is constantly so pleasant. The grad student who lives here is nice too but we don't see each other all that often because we're both so busy. When I'm not at work, I'm either seeing a show Wolf Trap, going home for the weekend, or going to visit Shane for the weekend. Busy times. The internship is interesting. It is definitely a great experience. I'm learning a LOT because I'm being given a lot of responsibility which is good. I just don't think that it's something I want to be doing for the rest of my life. I have reservations for a number of reasons - that I'd gladly elaborate on in person should you be interested. The true test will be when I do practically the same thing at CENTERSTAGE come September. If I don't like it then I know it's the work; if I do like it - well then maybe Wolf Trap and I are just not meant to be. Despite any reservations, though, I cannot deny how much I'm learning and I just hope that I can collect it all properly when I leave on August 20th in order to utilize the skills as best as I can in the future.

I'm a little behind on all of the design for the Theatre Department's season. I was without internet here for about 3 weeks so that put me behind and now that it's back, I'm sloooowly transitioning into working on all of that again, haha.