Well, well, well. It's been a while, hasn't it? I knew this would happen. Oh well. Lot's of things have changed since we last spoke (yes I realize that I am talking as if this inanimate website is a person with which I converse.) (Also, on a complete side note, "I'll Make a Man Out of You" from Mulan just came on Pandora and made my morning).
Aaaaanywho, let's see.
Today is my one year anniversary! Crazy. It doesn't feel like a year. Years seem very short these days. I feel that this is a byproduct of aging and I don't like it. I much prefer the time when a school year seemed like an eternity, not a blink. School is about to end. Forever. I don't think I like it. I'm not sure though. I mean, I love the idea of being able to come home from work and not necessarily have any obligations. I realize this is not completely true because artists are always working but it will be much better. No "homework." I'm really looking forward to that. However, I've been so good at school for so long that it is a scary thought to now embark on something other. Weird.
I have a summer internship though! At the Wolf Trap Foundation for the Performing Arts in Vienna, VA (20 mins out of DC). Now I just have to find a place to live for the summer that is cheap enough to maintain on my tiny salary. I also have an interview for a season long internship at Imagination Stage in Bethesda, MD on Thursday the 15th. Crazy. I haven't heard back yet from some of the other internships I applied to. And then there is still the matter of applying to Graphic Design jobs which I haven't done yet. Ugh. I just hate having to think about the future when I have assignments due tomorrow. It's so stressful. It's moments like those that make me long for the end of school.
I don't even know what I want to do with myself. I can speculate and I can go through the motions of doing whatever I end up with but I just can't decide. There isn't one thing that I can honestly say that I want to do for the rest of my life. And I hate that I feel like I have to decide like RIGHT NOW. I don't really; I know that. But sometimes I feel like I do. People just have such high expectations. Sometimes, I wish I had a moment to breathe and take it all in before I am forced to act. A moment of thoughtfulness could go a long way in decision making. And I like being busy! I just hate feeling out of control (like I do right now). However, the line between those two things is getting very thin.
It's a scary time.
3 comments:
I just hate having to think about the future when I have assignments due tomorrow.
I COMPLETELY agree with you!! Seriously SERIOUSLY! And I pretty much always feel like everyone has got it more together than I do. Like, when other people are asked "so where are you going to live next year? What are you going to do?" other people don't SEEEEM to be having a massive anxiety attack. I think you said it perfectly though. It's just impossible to think of something as huge as your future, when you've still got a paper to write for tomorrow!
And to answer your question, I do NOT watch Glee, but I am a supporter (mostly because I think Jane Lynch is flawless). I only watched the pilot. But it DEFINITELY seems like something I would watch, and I may begin soon.
You definitely should because Jane Lynch is, in fact, flawless in it. And now that we speak of Jane Lynch, I seem to remember us having this conversation before maybe, haha oops! But yeah, you should watch...
I think the last time Jane Lynch came up, I omitted whether or not I actually watch the show because I'm pretty ashamed that I don't... so I SHOULD watch. Plus, the segments I have seen are just gold.
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